I sit here calmly thinking over all the drama that is going on in the life of everyone I know and feeling rather numb about it all. I think that might be shock setting in because I am on overload. I’m usually not numb but in fact have great empathy as far as the people in my life are concerned. I think it is just that if I currently allowed myself to exhibit all the empathy that I truly want to, I would implode or something. Add to that the fact that there is fuck all I can do to help them other than to lend an ear and well, I seriously think I would be crying if I weren’t numb.


So just to assure myself that I have not turned into a stone or sociopath who doesn’t care about, if nobody else but the important people in her life, I am going to spew forth now about everyone’s issues. I’m hoping that this will make me realize that I do care but at the same time help me cope.

( Because I tend to ramble... )

I had a fabulous birthday weekend starting with a surprise party the night before the actual birthday at my boat. Then we headed out on said boat for a weekend of near perfect weather. When I got back home Sunday, I had lots of birthday wishes here, on my voice mail and via emails. Thank you all for those and if I missed saying it directly to anyone, apologies.

We don't actually go very far away, about an hour and a half to a great cove on one of the Gulf Islands. It literally feels like you are in another part of the planet isolated and away from the crowds. There are other people there but it is a little piece of heaven. It's not something we can do every weekend because the cost of gas would kill us. But we're going to try for a few more at least this summer. The next one is planned for the end of June and heading for Hornby Island, a bit further away. And I am the captain of my ship! Love that! :)

I still haven't got all my Panama stuff posted or captioned but I uploaded a couple of pics of my boat here on my scrapbook if anyone wants a look. One I believe is of me in my kayak. Now that is an experience, trying to get into it from the swim grid on the back of the boat. It is an exercise in balancing and nerves. My heart pounds like crazy doing that. I have no desire to find myself in the water, flailing about. Not like my SO who decided last year that it would be a piece of cake to get in it. He figured if I could do it, so could he. The fact that he doesn't really have a good sense of balance didn't occur to him as an impediment. After losing his glasses, and damaging his cell phone and camera beyond repair, he has decided to forgo trips in, or rather out of, the kayak. :)

The writing has stalled for me for so long and I don't know how to get any inspiration or muse back. I feel so inadequate when I try to write now, it pains me. But I did say I'd write a ficlet for jean_geanie and I will fulfill that promise even if it is rather late. Promise.

As I'm heading out of town and will have no internet access for three days, I wanted to wish you an excellent early birthday. Have a great one!!

It was a fun weekend all around (and this was supposed to be a four day weekend for me, cut short by working overtime today).

It ended on the high notes of watching Planet of the Dead which I thoroughly enjoyed and Skellig for the lovely Mr Simm.

( Spoilers for both... )
So now I have three more days of madness before I leave these shores for three weeks. I am definitely looking forward to the holiday but fear I shall go slightly mad with internet deprivation. I shall miss the depravity as well. :) The kicker is that I’m going to miss the new episodes of SPN so I need whoever watches it to fill me in on the shows. Please!! I will try my best if it doesn’t cost megamoney on the ship, to slip onto the net once in a while so postings or emails would be appreciated.

Looked like fun when I saw on karaokegal's post.

You Should Have Been Born Under: Horse

You've got a ton of energy - and need plenty of room to roam. You tend to follow your whims, and it's hard for you to stick to one thing. Specific jobs, loves, and friends are always changing and never a part of your life for long. Very intuitive, you tend to know what people are thinking before they say a word. You are most compatible with a Dog or Tiger.

I love you!

...as posted by various members of my flist. And I do.

Whew!! I wrote two things tonight. I do believe my muse has decided to pay a visit. Hurray! This one is a LOM drabble written for the Friday Challenge. I chose the prompt Annie isn't who she appears to be.

 

( Determination )

Because I asked for it (it did look like such fun) and candesgirl delivered... she truly is evil and if you read the rest, you'll know how much I embrace that characteristic.

My three challenges were:

Anakin Skywalker
Gene Hunt
Simm!Master


And behind the cut because, as usual, I ramble... and I'm still working on the pictures!!

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Snagged from gritsinmisery

I would like to know 33 things about you. It doesn't matter if we never talk or if we already know everything about each other.

Short and sweet is fine...
1. Can you cook?
2. What was your dream growing up?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favourite place?
5. Favourite vegetable?
6. What was the last book you read?
7. What zodiac sign are you ?
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
9. Worst Habit?
10. Do we know each other outside of lj?
11. What is your favourite sport?
12. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15. Tell me one weird fact about you:
16. Do you have any pets?
17. Do you know how to do the Macarena?
18. What time is it where you are now?
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22. What colour eyes do you have?
23. Ever been arrested?
24. Bottle or Draft?
25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?
27. What 's your favourite bar to hang at?
28. Do you believe in ghosts?
29. Favourite thing to do in your spare time?
30. Do you swear a lot?
31. Biggest pet peeve?
32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

The world is grey and soaked with cold rain in my corner of the universe but it is Thursday and I am supposed to have tomorrow off. There is so much to do at work and I do have the opportunity to work overtime tomorrow which I will likely do but at least I can turn off my alarm and cruise in when I want to.

At the risk of spoilers for Supernatural... ( Read more... )

Now for the meme that three lovelies from my flist have posted, I answered and part of the requirement was posting here.

If you'd like to fill in, I'd love to hear the answers.


BASICS
001. Name:
002. Birthday:
003. Place of residence:
004. What makes you happy:
005. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
006. Do you read my LJ:
007. If you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
008. An interesting fact about you:
009. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
010. Favourite place to be:
011. Favourite lyric:
012. Best time of the year:
013. Any pets?

RECOMMEND
001. A film:
002. A book:
003. A band, a song and an album:
004. A LJ friend you think I'd get along with:

PLUS
001. One thing you like about me:
002. Two things you like about yourself:
003. A picture of yourself! (optional, of course):
004. Put this in your LJ so I can tell you what I think of you.

I dont' usually do reviews of stuff because so many others have already done the same but for this, I felt the urge.

Definitely cut for ramblings and spoilers...

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Friday Mar 6 Drabble Challenge - a Day at the races

Because I don't want to lose and am in too much of a hurry to add it to my drabble post.

Background for those who don't know motorcycles - the TT is an annual race on the Isle of Mann.

“Bloody hell,” Gene shouted, leaping from the bed and flinging the curtains aside. The sunlight penetrated Sam’s eyelids and the outside rumbling pulled Sam the remainder of the way to consciousness.

“There’s a mob of blokes on motorbikes. This can’t be…”

“The TT?” Sam said, a grin stretching across his face. “The race you’ve always wanted to see? The bikes on the ferry didn’t give it away? Think you may be slipping.”

“You didn’t think so last night,” Gene said moving back to the bed and sliding his hand under the sheet. “Care for a couple of laps in here?”

I asked candesgirl if I could play and she gave me five words that she associated with me:

Vancouver
Dragons
Boats
Star Wars
Writing

My commentary on these words is behind the cut as I tend to ramble
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Comment to this post and I will give you five things/subjects I associate with you!!

Ganked from an assortment of lovelies!!


* Describe me in one word, just one single word. Positive or negative.

* Leave your word in a comment, before looking at what words others have used.

* Copy and paste the meme to your journal to find out how people describe you when limited to one word.

Following along with jean_genie and acidpenguin46 and repeating/agreeing with some of their answers...

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Title: Locked
Characters: Gene, Missus and a furry little kitten
Word Count: 100
A/N: dashed off for the Friday drabble challenge with Friday the 13th the theme. I should be attaching to my other drabbles but am too lazy to go find it.

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Finished watching episode 4 tonight and I have to admit that if it were not for my love of Phil Glenister, I would not be continuing. I adore fantasy, supernatural characters but this one is just not doing it for me.

I keep trying to ignore how truly bad Mr Glenister's accent and want to scream at the screen when he slips into his normal accent that he should stay there! He has such a lovely voice. Mind you, my head constantly goes back to the growl from Vice. ;) And why, oh, why can Rupert not have anything other than a pissed off look on his face. He actually almost cracked a smile in this episode but it was so brief before it snapped back again. I realize that his character is supposed to be a tortured soul but it just seems far too one dimensional.

But then, all of the characters seem that way, to be truthful.

Luke is the... well, he might just as well be compared to Luke Skywalker and the dialogue he has while updated is almost as bad as that in Star Wars. This Luke is a very pretty boy with the weight of the world being placed on his shoulders. Pretty shoulders mind you.

Mina is, like Rupert, another tortured soul. Yes she is a vampire in rehab, yes she is blind, yes she turned her son into a vampire who choses not to be in rehab but come on people!! She is gorgeous and a piano virtuoso. There has to be a reason for her to go on. Well, if I'm honest, Mina did laugh at the end of the show tonight at Rupert's expense. That was fun.

Then there is Ruby who I actually like. She at least has a range of emotions and hell, despite the fact that she is written as a bit of a lovesick ditz, she's the one that seems to solve most of the problems. But I truly detest what the writers have done with the relationship she has with Mina. It's like a bloody cat fight constantly. I'm sorry but do these writers think that all women can do is snark at each other??

The bits that I did enjoy tonight were 1) Rupert torturing Luke with country music, 2) Mina's comment at the end that Rupert could lose a few pounds, 3) two hot vampires, 4) Zippy - stupid and campy and in a slapstick kind of way, rolling his head down the bowling alley was amusing, especially the photography for that bit, 5) the retelling of the origins of vampires.

Overall, the show and the characters had so much potential. But the writing is woefully inadequate. Nevertheless, I will no doubt continue to watch it, hoping that Mr Glenister finally does crack a smile or show something of that wonderful range he has. It's like a train wreck...can't not look at it!

Because I couldn't resist taking this test when I saw it via acidpenguin46

( Nerd Test )

First seen in severinne 's lj.

 

( Meme... )